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That Foster Kid- Cursed

Shattered Glass

By Luis Porraz

Once the damage is done, I cannot revert the hurt

It lurks like dirt particles, how do I show myself

When I am insecure with cracks like webs

Connecting each memory of that moment

The creation of existence, the beginning of time... For me

Was my birth a wormhole, a portal to another dimension

Why do feel like I don't belong? Not just on earth but in myself

Was there a break in life, a shift in the paradigm of mine

Maybe it just my vision through shattered glass

 

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By Luis Porraz

 

The cracks remain, remnants of what cannot be forgotten

Scarred fragments of memories, in which flash and strike like lightning

Burning holes, turning wholes into nothing but ashes

A fragile shell, a void fading in and out of reality,

With each step closer to it's demise

Trying to grasp the concept of existence, a reason, a purpose!

All maintained as encrypted data,

With an impenetrable firewall that cannot be undone

What is to become of this thing!

Every word it pukes cries out for help! Except that word itself

It wishes to be yet it cannot see that it has always been a he

"Some song I was writing" By Luis Porraz

I'm sitting here in darkness and I don't know what to do

The shadows are consuming me I wish I could get through

When I think it's over I keep thinking of you

What did you do, what did you do to me

Again and again I try to pretend your words are illusions

Trying to drown out your ways of causing intrusions

But I can't help me

But I can't help me

Sometimes I lose myself in you 

Never wanting to find a way back 

What stops me? what's holding me down?

These thoughts are like quicksand 

Swallowing every motion I make 

Suffocating each and every inch of my body 

Depression is the only branch in reach 

With sadness as my only savior 

I've lost all taste in this world 

Now all I have to savor are my memories 

Because the present and I are enemies 

So many things I tried to say 

But I'm always in a rush 

To get away from you 

Just know its not your fault and it will never be

The distances between us and it is a must 

To keep my sanity 

To dream my fantasies 

To miss my family 

So I can let you see

What's right with me

What's right with me