Where do we go when dreams die?

By Luis Porraz

Miraculous that they vanished

Just like my future I've been banished 

Tossed out to suffer in the cycle of hate 

With chains increasing in never ending weight 

There are no exits or expiration dates 

Darkness all over, hearing dreams cry themselves to death

Where it's possible to choke on air 

Gasping, asking for a quick slaughter 

Regrets come to life stabbing you 

With anguish, humility, and hopelessness 

Tears stay inside afraid to show weakness 

Never to evaporate, flooding your thoughts 

Heavy headed regretting ever asking "where do we go when dreams die?"

"You didn't see me when I was here, so how could you miss me when I'm gone" -Luis Porraz

Cast Away

By Luis Porraz

How would I know I'm not invisible when you aren't there to tell me

My words scream for help, only to hear the echoes again and again

Engulfed by the emptiness but prevent showing any sign

Corroding from the inside out knowing this problem is mine

It's ok, I'm fine, it's what I always say but you'll never know

Because when I did all I ever saw was merciless ridicule

All I ever heard laughter with certainty

All I ever felt was a lash from rejection

A subject for societies objection...

The Closest Stranger

By Luis Porraz

Remember all those games we used to play

Now you're nothing but a stranger

Everytime I see you now

All I register is danger

To you a friend's a task

You can always adapt with your liquid mask

You're the blade that cuts the veins of friendship

It's a shame I should've read the fine print

You were the patch on my favorite jacket that fell off

Now you avoid me too walking away with a fake cough

You can't see the scars but you can feel them when I talk

Now it's just your memory that takes me on a walk

It's just honesty, I understand go ahead and mock...

Message from the heart

By Luis Porraz

You thought I was missing! 

I hear these voices telling him he's empty

I'm sorry dear owner for sealing myself away

I wish it was different, I wish I could've stayed

This is how I react when I get betrayed

Not just once but over and over in life I got played

This time I was dying and as a reflex I became frozen

I became the numb you feel inside, invisible to yourself

I know you understand others yet aren't believed

So when you hear them you can never be deceived

You still go along knowing you'll get stabbed from behind

I would say please there is a cure for you to find

I wish I could fix it, but love's an incurable disease

Go on without me, you're what everybody sees

With love frozen in time,

Your heart that's one of a kind

Misunderstood is Music

By Luis Porraz

Any other musicians out there?

Alone, dreaming of music and drowning in melodies

These things are permanent like broken memories

With the curse to heal everybody but yourself?

Secluded, in fear of being used for such a blessing

Choking on the thought that they'll leave you guessing

Why do we become a tool for entertainment?

Fame, the only way we see a chance for survival

Sharing the fact that we're all the same but in denial

What a curse... What a blessing...

Just the thought has me stressing...

Two Halves

By Luis Porraz

To others my writing is guidance yet for me it is essential for survival. Even though I write/sing/cry out my emotions, it doesn't seem like enough. Is there such thing as a cure for this depressive madness? I miss my mom, I miss the dad I never had, I miss the siblings that were taken, I miss my friends, most of all I miss myself. It gets even worse when I'm told to choose a side between two friends because I can't, I choose both and I end up with them leaving. What kind of friend am I to agree with them, when will this end...